Ending this week would mean one month in Clementi camp. Things have been quite heavy in terms of work. And it doesn't really help when you're new. And it also doesn't help when in your branch, you're seated in the middle of your supervisor and senior who keep talking to each other not just because their major is Chinese, but also because their talk is really work-centric and they get along well. Even eating lunch with them is hard.
To be honest, a lot of times I'd rather wish I were left alone. I tried it once, eating lunch by myself, but that senior was like
"Why are you eating alone?"
So I joined them out of formality.
I haven't got friends who would really listen to all of my thoughts too - plus they're actually training somewhere in the field or wherever - so sms-ing them is pretty pointless too.
Sounds a little cruel but, I really hope all those who are going to ORD this year will just quickly ORD and go away. It's not their sarcasm or being constantly reminded by them that they're going to ORD soon and you're not; I just thought that hopefully, it would be easier to make friends with new people. Meanwhile I'll find a way so I can eat alone or something.
I know that to most people, the more company the merrier. It almost always is like that among combat NSFs who love the camaraderie and the bonding and all that.
Yet to me, rather than hearing loud noises and all sorts of laughter and shouting - I would much rather be seated alone, possibly under a tree, where a cool breeze would be present amongst a scenery of sunset or spring.
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