"ORD loh."

Truth be told, while NS has certainly provided some life-changing experiences thus far, it's hard to accept that most if not all of my friends would ORD before I did. It's the sort of feeling where you're being left behind while everyone else (not goes out and enjoys stuff with their friends or gets to travel) but moves on with their lives. It's not about that they get to go overseas or more holidays before university - it's about moving on more quickly than you are.

While I've definitely got a much less strenuous time, it's sort of hard to accept that my friends will get to move on with their lives faster than you.

I imagine this scene of me calling after them to wait for me as they run away into the blinding light while I'm still stuck here, being forced to walk and not run.

Even though, no matter what after 2 years we'll all have finished - I somehow still have doubts about the future; what would happen to friendships? Would they stand the test of time? Would too long an absence somehow not make the heart grow fonder anymore - and just decide to move along without waiting?

Maybe it's just me being paranoid, but that really scares me alot.

I wish I could ORD the same time as then. If I could turn back the clock, I would definitely choose to have enlisted 2 months earlier; just enough so that we could ORD together. It's strange for me because all of a sudden, the word "together" means a lot to me.